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Alas, Dreamland / Chapter 8

Mechanical Hearts

May 28, 1904

James found poetry in circuit diagrams the way other men found it in whiskey or women—each line a verse against chaos, each connection a small prayer against the premature deaths that haunted his sleep. At seven in the morning, with Dreamland still sleeping off its nightly fever like a drunk trying to forget what it had birthed in darkness, he spread his blueprints across a table made from sawhorses and scrap wood, trying to impose order on what greed had delivered too soon, without thought for the consequences of its ambition.

The incubator building needed a dedicated circuit—its own lifeline, separate from the theatrical lies. Currently, it shared power with the Arabian Nights Spectacular, which meant every time the dancers hit their crescendo, the mechanical wombs forgot their purpose. The premature babies’ temperatures fluctuated with each shimmy and spin, their survival tied to the rhythm of entertainment. It was madness dressed as efficiency, typical of Dreamland’s premature economics—everything connected before anyone thought to ask if it should be.

“You’re early.” Albertson appeared in the doorway, looking chronically overwhelmed. “Or late, depending on perspective.”

“Couldn’t sleep.” James didn’t mention the dreams—Tommy’s voice calling out readings while smoke filled basements that existed in every building he’d ever enter, phantom fires waiting to be born. “The incubator circuit needs isolation. Those babies are premature enough without adding electrical instability to their troubles.”

“Everything needs isolation. Everything here was born too close together, forced into proximity before the infrastructure could support it.” Albertson rubbed his face with hands that shook from too much coffee and too little sleep, a man aging prematurely under the weight of keeping the impossible functioning. “The carousel needs new motors before it throws a child. The Beacon Tower needs rewiring before it births a fire. Hell Gate needs to be demolished before it fulfills its promise. Richardson says we have budget for one major project. Choose which disaster to postpone.”

“The incubators.”

“The ride that brings in twenty thousand paying customers, or the babies that draw five hundred curiosity-seekers?”

“The babies.”

Albertson sighed like a man who’d had this argument before. “You’re as bad as that nurse. Thompson. Acts like those premature infants are made of something precious instead of being small and likely to die anyway.”

“They’re made of something more fragile.” James began sketching the new circuit design. “And Miss Thompson understands that fragility requires precision.”

“Miss Thompson, is it?” Albertson’s eyebrows rose like warning flags. “Careful there, boy. That’s George Dressler’s woman. Man who puts his head in a lion’s mouth daily isn’t someone you want to cross. That kind of premature death wish tends to spread to anyone who gets too close.”

“I’m not crossing anyone. I’m designing electrical systems.”

“In Dreamland, everything’s connected to everything else.” Albertson pointed at the blueprint. “You isolate that circuit, you’ll need to reroute power from somewhere. Every choice has consequences.”

After Albertson left, James returned to his calculations. The math was clean, predictable—unlike the strange flutter in his chest when Minnie Thompson spoke his name, that premature spark trying to ignite before he could insulate against it. Unlike the way her competence made him want to be worthy of witnessing it. Unlike the memory of her hands steady on the temperature gauges while chaos tried to birth itself around them, as if she understood that some things required constant vigilance against their own nature.

He was deep in calculations when footsteps disturbed his concentration. Light, purposeful. He knew before looking up.

“Mr. Harris?” Minnie stood in the doorway, dressed for day shift but with shadows under her eyes that suggested another sleepless night. “I’m sorry to disturb you.”

“You’re not disturbing.” He gestured at the blueprints. “Actually, your timing is perfect. I’m designing a dedicated circuit for the incubators.”

Her face lit up, transforming exhaustion into something luminous. “Really? Dr. Couney will be thrilled. He’s been saying—” She stopped herself, suddenly formal again. “That’s very kind of you to prioritize us.”

“It’s not kindness. It’s necessity. The current configuration is dangerous.”

“Most people here don’t see the difference between dangerous and dramatic.”

“Most people here haven’t seen what happens when dangerous gives birth. Haven’t watched fire arrive premature and hungry, taking what wasn’t ready to be given.”

She moved closer, studying the blueprints with the same intensity she brought to reading premature heartbeats. Her sleeve brushed his arm—a touch too brief to be anything but accidental, too electric to be dismissed. He caught her scent: carbolic soap and something floral, the smell of someone who straddled the line between the clinical and the living, between preventing death and enabling life.

“This is elegant,” she said, tracing the circuit path with one finger like a midwife checking for a pulse. “You’ve minimized the connection points.”

“Fewer connections mean fewer failures. Fewer places for disaster to be born.”

“That’s true of more than electrical systems.” Her voice carried the weight of someone who’d learned to isolate her heart like a critical circuit, protecting it from surges that might prove fatal. She straightened, and he felt the loss of her proximity like a dropped wire. “Would you like to see the space? It might help with your planning.”

They walked to the incubator building through Dreamland’s morning transformation. Maintenance crews scrubbed away the previous night’s excess while performers practiced in whatever space they could claim. Tommy Callahan was drilling his Napoleon routine on a platform, his tiny form commanding imaginary armies. The strong man lifted progressively larger objects while reading a newspaper, multitasking marvels.

“It’s different in daylight,” Minnie observed. “Less magical. More obviously premature—all the seams showing, all the wishes visible.”

“More honest.”

“Is honesty better than magic?”

“Honesty doesn’t burn down when the wiring fails. Magic requires constant maintenance against its own impossibility.”

She smiled, but it was sad around the edges. “You sound like someone who’s seen too much truth.”

“And you sound like someone who’s invested in illusion.”

“Not illusion. Hope. There’s a difference.”

They’d reached the incubator building. Inside, the day nurse was tending to the babies while Dr. Couney reviewed charts. He looked up as they entered, his expression sharpening with interest.

“Ah, Mr. Harris. Minnie says you’re designing us a dedicated circuit.”

“If the budget allows.”

“The budget will allow,” Dr. Couney said firmly. “I’ll speak to Richardson myself if necessary. These infants generate more newspaper coverage than all the rides combined. We’re not just an attraction—we’re a miracle.”

“Miracles still need proper wiring,” James said. “Even premature ones. Especially premature ones.”

“A practical romantic. How refreshing.” Dr. Couney smiled like a man who’d learned to make pragmatism and idealism dance together. “Most people think miracles should be self-sustaining. They don’t understand that the impossible requires twice the infrastructure of the ordinary.”

They spent the next hour examining the space, James taking measurements while Minnie explained the technical requirements. She knew every detail—not just the medical needs but the mechanical ones, the precise temperatures and humidity levels, the backup systems and fail-safes.

“You could be an engineer,” James said, impressed despite himself.

“I prefer engineering survival. It’s more immediate.” She adjusted one of the temperature gauges with practiced precision. “My sister died at birth. Did you know that?”

The confession surprised him. “I didn’t.”

“Clara. Two minutes older, forever younger. The midwife said I took all the strength in the womb, left none for her. That I was born greedy, taking my sister’s share of life before we even knew there were shares to take.” She kept her eyes on the gauge, reading numbers that might predict which premature soul would follow Clara’s path. “Ridiculous, of course. Fetuses don’t make those kinds of choices. But guilt doesn’t care about logic. It gestates in the dark spaces between what we know and what we feel.”

“So you save other sisters.”

“I try.” She faced him then, and he saw his own ghosts reflected in her eyes. “Is that why you prevent fires? Because of someone you couldn’t save?”

“My brother Tommy.” The words arrived premature, before he could stop them. “Factory collapse. Electrical fire in the basement—a disaster born from shortcuts and greed. I was supposed to inspect that system, but I was sick. Sent Tommy instead. He died at 3:17 AM, calling out voltage readings while the walls came down, as if numbers could stop the inevitable once it started its terrible birth.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Everyone’s sorry. Sorry doesn’t rebuild walls or restart hearts that stopped too soon.” He turned back to his measurements, needing the safety of numbers that couldn’t die before their time. “But proper circuit design might prevent the next premature ending. Might keep someone else’s 3:17 from ever arriving.”

“Is that enough? Preventing the next disaster?”

“It has to be.”

They worked in the particular silence of those who understood that some births came too early and some deaths came too soon, but the work of postponing one and preventing the other continued regardless. Each carried their ghosts—Clara who never breathed, Tommy who stopped—but found purpose in the mechanical rhythms of keeping premature things alive. When James finally had all the measurements he needed, the morning had aged into something heavier.

“Thank you,” Minnie said as they prepared to leave. “For prioritizing this. For understanding why it matters.”

“Thank you for showing me the space. It helps to see what I’m protecting.”

“What you’re protecting isn’t the space.” She gestured at the incubators, those glass wombs for the untimely born. “It’s the possibility that premature things—babies, dreams, love—might survive if given the right support. That arriving too soon doesn’t have to mean leaving too early.”

“Is that what we’re all doing here? Surviving with help?”

“Some of us.” Her expression grew distant. “Others are just performing survival until the real thing comes along.”

Before he could ask what she meant, George Dressler appeared in the doorway like a birth that refuses to wait for invitation. He filled the frame completely, white suit immaculate despite the morning heat, presence commanding even in repose—a man who’d learned to make entrance into art, arrival into dominance.

“Liebchen,” he said, the endearment landing like a claim flag. His eyes were on James, reading the electrical charge in the air with the instincts of a predator who understood that some connections sparked before their proper time.

“James is designing us a dedicated circuit,” Minnie said, moving to George’s side with practiced ease. “To prevent the temperature fluctuations.”

“Wie aufmerksam—how thoughtful.” George’s smile was a performance, perfect and cold. “Though I wonder if isolation is really the answer. Sometimes sharing power makes everyone stronger. Sometimes keeping things separate just delays the inevitable connection.”

“Sometimes sharing power leads to cascading failures,” James countered.

“Spoken like a true engineer. Everything in neat little boxes, properly labeled, no premature mixing allowed.” George put his arm around Minnie, the gesture both casual and calculated, marking territory like a lion. “But life isn’t that tidy, ja? Sometimes the best things come from connections that arrive before anyone’s ready. Sometimes the worst things too.”

“Unexpected connections can also cause fires.”

“Yes,” George said softly. “They can.”

The two men regarded each other while Minnie stood between them, a conductor for tensions that had nothing to do with electricity. Finally, George broke the moment with a laugh that sounded almost genuine.

“Ach, listen to us, philosophizing about circuits while the sun shines on our premature paradise.” His laugh was perfectly timed, a performer who knew when to end a scene before it revealed too much. “Komm, liebchen. I promised to buy you breakfast at Stauch’s. Mr. Harris, I’m sure you have other disasters to prevent. Other premature endings to postpone.”

They left together, George’s hand possessive on Minnie’s waist. James watched them go, then returned to his blueprints. But the clean lines seemed more complicated now, the connections more fraught with possibility.

He thought about what Minnie had said—that they were protecting possibility, not just machinery. That some things arrived too soon but deserved their chance regardless. Thought about unexpected connections and cascading failures, about sparks that ignited before their time and fires that followed. Thought about the way she’d looked when she spoke of her sister, like someone who understood that love and guilt were twin currents in the same circuit, born together, impossible to separate.

In the end, he designed the isolated system as planned. But he included auxiliary connections, carefully controlled, that would allow for power sharing in emergencies. Because Albertson was right—in Dreamland, everything connected to everything else, a premature city where boundaries existed only to be crossed.

And some connections, no matter how dangerous, were already gestating in the space between what should be and what was. Already arriving before anyone was ready. Already as inevitable as fire, as unstoppable as birth, as premature and perfect as everything else in this electric eden built on sand.